[smccammond]

Awwwwe! Thanks for checking in on me! I had a triad group on Thursday (yesterday) and everyone there really gave me some insight on my birthmom. As much as it pains me and most of the birthmoms that I know, I forget how much pain she has gone through over the years and she has to wade through those before she can acknowledge me.
I have gotten a few emails from my BA and things are a little better. I think I may have gotten way more traits from my birth family than I thought. I'm very scattered, and I think that my BA is as well, thus the very sporatic emails. She did let me know (my BA) that she is just as scared as I am when it comes to tlaking or pushing her sister. I did find out that she doesn't know my birth fathers name, so that means I have to wait for my birthmom to tell me. I have nothing to go on, well that will get me anywhere. I know where he used to work, but that place isn't there anymore. At first I wondered how my BA wouldn't know who my birth father was, but I guess I can't remember my brothers girl friends and its only been 12 years, let alone 30.
It's 3 1/2 weeks till my b-day, hopefully it will be a wonderful day, I doubt it, but I can hope.

Sommer

[cksmom]

Thanks for the update Sommer. I would not suggest that BA probe your bmom about info on bdad just yet. That is usually a VERY sensitive subject and harder for most to event think about, let alone discuss. I think I asked my bmom too early and it made her pull back further. too much pressure, ya know?

Hang in there friend!!