[DASmith]

It is coming into my most UNfavorite times of the year. For as long as I can remember I have gotten severely depressed during the holidays. I think this is the first year that I have been able to understand why. I feel the same empty void that I feel the rest of the year not knowing about bfamily but with the holidays it seems to EXPLODE and become even larger than ever. I put on a brave face but for my son and stepdaughter but I really wish I could just go to sleep and wake up the day after Christmas and everything would be okay. The sad thing is I feel really guilty for feeling like this but I hide it because my son doesn't deserve to have his holidays ruined for something that he had no control over. I just feel super alone and although I know that there are many people going through the same thing I am I know it sounds so cliche but I feel no one else could possibly understand how I feel. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest and Happy Holidays everyone (especially when they're over). Danny

[LMNGambino]

I feel ya. We are really good at putting on a happy face, though, aren't we??
My birthday is also in December. HATE that "holiday", too.
Even as a little girl, I just put on my happy face and pretended, just to get through the day. Pretended to be happy, didnt want to hurt those around me who were doing something nice for me.... YUCK.
After I turned 40, I made it a new rule that NO ONE could ever have a party for me again. Its MY day, after all, isn't it? Pfffffffttttt.