[wilted rose]

Here goes! Look guys I know it's tough to talk 'bout. The emotional stuff! If you're searching or in reunion, can you share an 'emotional moment'. For instance, when I began my search, I was sitting in the towns' local archives, staring down at my bparents, and bgrandparents names in an old directory, and for the first time in my life, I felt a connection...
Rose

[healingfeeling]

when my fiance called me the saturday after thanksgiving and said, "Jess, I met your father today...."

my life was never the same after that........talk about tears of joy.........

[Raina0831]

Oooh, there have been SO many over the years....but the very first one I really remember -

When I found my mother's maiden and married names in the state birth index, I went to the town they lived in to browse the old Polk Directories. Sure enough, there my bmom was. It took my breath away when I realized that "I" was looking at MY "mom's" name. It was the first time I knew of her first name. She really did exist!! I really didn't drop from the sky or crawl out from under a rock one day!!

I totally understand what you are saying about a connection, Rose. That moment, for me, finally made me feel like part of the human race....

Huggs,
Raina

[eastendmommy]

Hi Rose!!

I'm still new in this reunion thing, but two things stand out above all else so far... the first time I heard his voice, I thought I was gonna die right then and there! To hear my grown son's voice for the first time is something that I'll never forget. And when I finally got pictures in the mail... the anticipation of opening up that envelope... the trembling hands fumbling for the pictures... to gaze at his beautiful face for the second time was priceless!

Two things that I was told would never happen... and I'll never forget them!

Hugs, Tammi

[shef]

When I realsied for the first time that I had shut off my first three years of my life becasue I had no one to tell me I was once a baby and I had been born...i thought my life started when i was fostered......I suddenly started to connect with me...to be in reunion with me......

shefalie

[healingfeeling]

I suddenly started to connect with me...to be in reunion with me......

so well said shef...........

[Cmara]

There are three very emotional moments that I can share. My birth mom never told her husband or her other children about me. It wasn't until she passed away that they found the paperwork on my adoption, and decided to search for me. I had also been posting on websites. The first emotional moment was when I received an email from a search angel who found my match. The emotions that ran through me were all over the place. The second was learning that I would never get to hug or see my mom. Talk about pure devestation! The third was when my birth aunt and b-sibs gave me a necklace that belonged to my grandmother and then my mother. Now, when I wear the necklace I feel close to her even though I never got to meet her. It was such a gift! A unexpected treasure!

[wilted rose]

Love these responses, guys! It's interesting how they all carry a common thread like a tapestry; the moment of our own continuum manifesting and the raw emotion that goes with it.
The very first time I spoke to my bMother on the telephone after being seperated for forty years, I was overcome with emotion and without hesitation I quietly asked her " Are you my Mother?" She replied "Yes", and she wept. I'll never forget the sadness in her voice.
Rose

[Sniffles]

I had a BIG BIG emotion thing going on the other day.
I recieved a package in the mail from my grandparents that had pics of my b-mom and a bunch of the family history and geneology. I LOOK JUST LIKE MY B-MOM!
It was the most wonderful feeling to actually put a face to this unknown person who has been in my thoughts most of my life.

Angela

[Jan18]

My first emotional moment was when I confirmed that the yearbook picture and name I had were in fact my mom's. My eyes just welled up with tears. I FINALLY was looking at her picture, and knew she was pregnant with me in the pic!

Hearing about my birth from her, and how she had to fight the nurses to see and hold me.

Finding out that my b-dad had died much too young, and that I would never get to meet him in this lifetime.

And getting a necklace my dad had given her when they were dating and the little bracelet that I wore in the hospital. I cried so hard knowing that she had carried those two items around for 33 years, hoping to one day give them to me.

[wilted rose]

Jan, I can relate about the photo of your bmother when she was expecting you; one of my older bsisters' had the one and only snapshot of my Mother pregnant with me, black and white 1965, she's hanging clothes on the line with clothespins in her mouth. I had it copied and have it hanging in my kitchen in an antique photo box above my recipe box next to the sink, wow this is emotional...
How are things sitting with you and your bmom these days?
Rose

[Jan18]

Wilted Rose are you asking me about my bmom or someone else? If you are asking me...things are going slow, but I can wait. I think I bring her much pain that she isn't ready to face. I hear from her every few weeks. I am not too sure where I stand in her life. After being out of her life for 33 years, I think she has a lot to think about.

[wilted rose]

Sweet Jan, I'm confident it isn't you that brings her pain but rather circumstances and feelings, emotions surrounding that time in her life. If this is something you truly want, your being patient is probably the key.
Hugs,
Rose

[wilted rose]

Cmara, I am moved by your response, many of us searching never anticipate that even after searching we come to find one or both bparents have passed on, that happened with my bdad. There is a loss that is undefined, one you suffer in silence, I hope you know here, there is some solace and understanding, sometimes that's all we have, I get that!
Hugs,
Rose

[wilted rose]

Shef, the self discovery is a bit scary sometimes, sort of like feeling exposed?
Rose