[twstdcat]

I hate to be a pest again,
But im wondering if any of you feel the same way ?All my life Ive been out to impress everyone .If your not my freind then ive done something wrong to you and I always try to make it better. Even if I have just met you . I worry about what people think of me ,At my job if one of the girls dont speak to me that day I get depressed for the day and wonder if I did something wrong to upset them.So I ask others at work is she upset with me ,they say not that I know of . maybe shes just having a bad day ,But in my eyes shes upset with me so ill go thru the day trying to make them laugh or basiclly kissing but trying to find out if they are mad at me .I do the same with the family,Boy am I messed up . I hate the feeling that anyone is mad at me ,It makes me deppressed and scared .I feel that they wont be my freinds anymore Is this the abandonement issue ? That they talk about if it is then it sucks . Ive noticed that I have an issue with people abandoning things like animals . I have to many animals ,though these are animals that no one wanted ,They have been dumped or orphaned .So here I am bringing them home so they can feel wanted and loved ,And I cant stand to see any animal being abused or neglected . I just aquired 4 baby kittens to add the the 4 at home already .These babies were starving and had not eaten for 2 days .So i rescued them this was 4 weeks ago now they are happy healthy and 2 have found really great homes with loving owners . That makes me feel so awsome !Any idea why I do this ? Maby I feel that I have to rescue everything Since I cant rescue myself or find my place in Life .Please feel free to put your 2 cents in I would appreciate it .Thanks for reading this ...................The Twstdcat