[twstdcat]

Hi all,
Just figured id write a few lines . Today is my 40th Bday and all I can do is cry. Its been over a year since i found out i was adopted. I feel like im not goin to find my bparents before I get any older. .I have a wonderful lady helping me to find them.Its just so hard waiting , and lonely as well. Lonely in an adoptees eyes , There is just something missing ,What im not sure of yet.MY brothers and sisters that dont know about me ,Maybe thats it , I just dont know .Im a workaholic so that helps me forget for the time being, I get so busy that I dont really think about it , When im tired or see a reunion show on tv then i cry all over.Its just no fun . Today is my birthday,Does my bmom & bdad remember this day are they thinking about me or am I forgotten about. Ya know that saying out of site out of mind. Did she get to see me at birth or did the nurses take me right away. Do my brothers and sisters know about me were they told , does my sister who was also givin up know about me .I think about her and wonder what she is like ,does she look like me ,Does she have the same interests. Im trying to be a trooper but its very hard,I dont let anyone know it bothers me so much cuz I dont show it, But in my privacy I let it all out and just cry.Anyhow I wanted to talk a lil bit just feeling kinda depressed & alone ...................thank you love to all adoptees like me .....
Twstdcat

[MissyJ]

Happy Birthday!

(Yep, know what you mean...)

[babyboy080688]

Dear Twstdcat,

I just wanted to say that you are never alone in this world. I know it must not feel that way sometimes, but it is the truth. There are people out there that care about you that you don't even know and have never met, myself included. I also wanted to say Happy Birthday. I wanted to share something with you that you may not be considering in regard to your birth mother. I myself gave my child up for adoption when I was a teenager. Well, today is his 16th birthday and I can't tell you how difficult it is to not be able to wish him a Happy Birthday!! You see the sacrifice of giving him up for adoption was not made in vain, it was by far the hardest thing I have ever done and I would never want to do anything to impose myself into his life and that is why I don't contact him, especially on a special day like his birthday. Just as I love and miss my son, so very much - your birthmother feels the same for you. You are loved by more people then you will ever know!!

Never forget that - she doesn't!!