[kacmom1]

Hi...My husband and I went about the whole adoption thing similar to some of you. We were lucky enough to have 4 healthy bio kids....easy getting pregnant, easy pregnancies and births. After number 4, I just couldn't get over the feeling that there was another baby somewhere in this world waiting for us. The feeling was so strong for a year or so and the feeling wouldn't leave me. I just knew that I'd have another baby...and not necessarily by birth. So, finally, I convinced my husband of this and we decided to give a home to an orphan somewhere. And we chose Guatemala. My husband was in the military for a while and he spent a lot of time in Central America. During that time, he saw so many orphaned children and so many children living in extreme poverty and we always thought that we'd love to help one of those kids one day. So, here we are...with an awesome 2 year old Guatemalan son. There are a few pretty amazing circumstances that led to our son....and it just proves to me without a doubt that it was him who was waiting for me! The night after we decided to adopt, I started researching. On that first day of research, I found a picture on the internet of this sweet little boy...the 2nd picture that I looked at...and I told my husband that this was going to be our son. As soon as I saw him, I just knew it was him. My husband tried not to let me get my hopes up, but I did anyway. Then, after a month or so, the boy's picture was gone. He was no longer available for adoption. I was sad but still not convinced that he was "gone". Three months later, when we got our referral the picture that we received was the same little boy that I saw on that first day. The family that was to adopt him filed for divorce and the adoption was canceled. It's amazing how things happen! It still amazes me!

About the craving a bio child while adopting....yep, me too! Who knows why....my husband thinks I'm addicted to kids!!!! I thought several times during the adoption process...what if I get pregnant?? And lots of friends said to me..."I'll bet you will get pregnant now!". It didn't happen....but I do still think about it.


Enough rambling...good night!