[jlcoffey1274]

I have a strange post.. I am wondering if anyone out there is able to have children... just would rather adopt.. BUT craving to have a child now that the adoption is underway???? My DH and I are very able to have a child, just decided that there were too many beautiful children in need of parents in the world... I have a BIO beauty from a previous marriage ... and DH and I both decided to adopt. BUT....


I can help but wonder "what if I got pregnant now" , "what if I sabotaged my birth control", What if..... GOD what if...

BUT, Also, I have a back problem and if I were to get pregnant I would kill me... I am a Master Gardener and know that I have limits... carrying my first child was very hard for me and set off many many physical issues... which haunt me daily... BUT, I constantly seem to touch on this issue of having another OOPSY..... Am I alone here??? JULIE