[Karen24]

I hate waiting and at this point I find it is easier to forget about waiting and keep on living! I am so tired of waiting and it has only been 3 months since we were approved and finalized. However we started just over a year ago. I don't want to get too excited and too eager. We too painted our extra room blue-"Blustery Day" a winnie the pooh color that can go girl or boy. I feel like it will never happen. I think our SW hates us too but I treat her like a friend and I email her good tidings and happy holidays to her family just so she remembers us. I do get scared that when it does happen I won't be prepared and I may fail at being a great parent. We also worry that maybe we picked the wrong people to find an infant for us. Maybe we won't ever get to be parents that is the scariest thing I can think of at this moment. The other scary thing...maybe their is a child out there that thinks they may never be loved. Keep the faith and hope and pray.