[Rocking Mama]

I'm posting for some encouragement to get thru the next few days.
A little history on this case: Baby "I" came to us at 3 days old testing positive for meth. He spent 17 days out of his first month back in the hospital critically ill and then started having attachment issues (probably in part due to the sudden removal from ** and then being so ill for so long).
Anyway, in the midst of all this in May, my 2 yo dd had to be admitted and have her tonsils removed. In July my youngest sister collapsed and died suddenly.
In one week's time we were told "I" would be with us thru the holidays, then that changed to Oct 3rd, then last week we were told he's going to reunify tomorrow!
Suddenly tonight I am really "feeling" his leaving. I think I have so much invested physically into this child (I'm so exhausted from working with him to overcome his attachment issues) and emotionally (I couldn't fall apart "properly" when my sister died since I had a baby to care for). Tonight I'm feeling ALL the loss and grief of my sister's death AND little "I's" impending departure.
So I'm just asking for some cyber-hugs and prayers to get me thru these next couple-few-several days-weeks-months(??). This is my 3rd foster baby returning home to mom, so I already know how hard it is to go thru. THANKS EVERYONE!
RM