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Blessed Be, You have to do what you are capable of and what is in your heart. I think you might want to talk to C about this and see how she feels. I have not been in your shoes and know that this is hard. However, we had a slightly similar experience in that we opted to end our second "match" when the expectant mother insisted on leaving the agency. She wanted us to follow her to a new agency (with a different fee structure). We opted not to and informed her and expected to get back on the "waiting train;" it was a hard choice because we had built a relationship with her. Anyway, that very night we got the call about our dd being born. We chose to go immediately. Within three months of her birth, we were presented with another baby who was already born. We opted out of that.

Within the next two years we were approached two times by expectant mothers (one girl we saw regularly in our community) and both were considering placement. They specifically asked if we were interested in adopting again because they wanted to place their (Caucasian) babies in multi-racial multi-cultural homes like ours (one knew I was a SAHM and knew me in passing). We gave each of them the name of a local agency to inform them of options.

I never saw this as a sign, though you might. I saw it as timing or being in a place at a certain time when my experience could benefit someone else. If you want and can do both then go for it but be upfront about your plan with each of them; one or both potential birthmothers might not be okay with the plan and may opt out. They might be thrilled and think it is great! How you and they feel is key. Our personal choice was that AT was not right for us and not fair to our daughter.

Wishing you peace and luck.