Hello everyone,
Thanks for taking the time to respond to my message. I appreciate it.
I will take the advice to find a counsellor into consideration!
Does anyone know how I would go about finding someone to talk to in this field? I still haven't found an agency that I like, in terms of their attitude to me when I explain why I am calling. They are either too sugary sweet and kind of condescending (like because I'm pregnant, I must be some kind of dumb, young thing) or they sound like they are doing me a favor by swooping in to my rescue. I don't need to be rescued, and I'm not dumb!! (I could show them the semester's worth of AP credits I'm bringing with me to college if they want proof of that!!) I just want to talk to someone knowledgable about the process and to have some help in finding a family for the baby.
I've been pretty tired lately, and just want to sleep all the time, so that is what I wind up doing almost as soon as I get home from work every day. My OBGYN is keeping a close eye on me because gestational diabetes run in the family and I'm trying to be careful about what I eat. I am having problems with food though, which is weird but things that I normally love to eat I suddenly can't stand the sight or more often the smell of, like meat. I'm a girl who likes her steak and my dad was grilling steaks for dinner last night and I almost puked at the smell of them when I went out on the patio!! I also can't stand the smell of scented things like my mom's potpourri and candles or my brother's stupid incense sticks that he burns 24-7 in his room. Okay, I never liked the smell of those before I was pregnant, but now they really churn up my stomach. I shouldn't complain though!!
I saw my ex the other night and he said he wants to come over and "hang out" this weekend. He is heading back to campus next week, and I think his mom is putting him up to it - to coming over I mean. He doesn't really want to look at me since I'm showing a little bit now (and my chest is HUGE these days too) because he doesn't like to be reminded of the baby. I told him if he really wants to be supportive of me (the line he was spouting the other night) then he will look through the profiles of adopting parents with me and give me his input. He really isn't interested though. We'll see what happens if he does come over tomorrow.
Well I am at work so I should stop hanging out on this website and finish up so I can hopefully go home a little early. THe office is dead and the phone has only rung one time since lunch so I am not feeling too too guilty about surfing the net on company time, but it isn't what they pay me for irregardless. I'll be back this weekend!
Sincerely,
Maralee