[loveccl]

I guess I just wanted to add my support....Its a hard place to be at 17yrs. I think for me it will be about as hard as the first year. I'm sure its all you think about and analyze and wonder and it drives you crazy. I guess in my mind I chose adoptive parents to guide my child through 18 years of his life. I already plan to knock on thier door at 4:35 in the afternoon the day and minute he turns 18yrs. I guess what I have learned whith all this is that we have nothing left to loose. We only have empty arms to fill. I know my son is part of me and will feel the connection between us when we meet. Maybe I'm wrong, but I can't think that. I have to think that he will welcome me into his life. I don't expect to take over as his mom, but I do expect a relationship with him. I know with my little brother who I found 3 years ago I have never expected a brother sister relationship but rather just a relationship. We are connected and he feels it also. Remember we never choose our family they just part of who we are good or bad.

I'm glad you try to stay positive and happy. Its hard especially when working though everything to not HATE and be bitter. People suck but hey thats them not us.

Not sure if any of this makes sence. Just a my thoughts.

Loveccl