Hi all,
Thanks for the concern & hope for us. Our lunch w/the couple was interesting. They seem to just want to hang out with us, and there is very little talk about the baby. He still seems like the more interested and open one, and she is very, very quiet. She apologized a few times and said she was very tired.
She is a server at a restaurant, and she was telling me that all the customers want to talk to her about the pregnancy, touch her stomach, etc... (at 6 months, she's big!). I asked her how she felt, and if she talked about adoption to anyone, and she said no, just a few select people. I'm feeling some hesistation from her...not about us, I think...but about the adoption in general. I guess its to be expected, but it is not making me very hopeful, especially considering what we've been through.
But, despite this, they said they wanted to come see us at our house. They were anxious to try and make it this week, since my husband and I are going away for a long weekend Thursday night. They rearranged their work schedules, and they are coming for a visit Thursday morning! I know they like us, and I think intellectually they're ready to match...but I do suspect she's having conflicts right now about whether or not to keep the baby. So, we'll see how Thursday goes, and we're hoping that maybe they'll be a little more free to talk about the baby, and hopefully talk frankly about where they're at. My attorney told me to try and just relax and wait it out. She doesn't want to push for a match too soon, and thinks that if she calls the pbmom, she may pressure her. In her mind, the longer they take to decide, the safer we are...that they change their mind before we go much further or start with the financial help. We'll see!
StacyKelly---gosh, my heart goes out to you. I can certainly say I know how you are feeling and it is such a tough place to be, not knowing how to feel or what the future holds. All good wishes and thoughts are headed your way
Ilene, thanks for the encouraging words.
One final note...as we prepare for their visit, we're clearly getting the baby room cleaned up. We've pretty much had the door closed since we lost the baby. It is an odd feeling going through his things, taking his photos out of the holders, trying to minimize the "boy looking" things (this baby is a girl). It is a hard thing to kind of erase his presence from the room, but I know it is necessary - yet it feels weird. It is like that 24 hour period when we lost him has been frozen...everything just where we left it, in the middle of such normal activities. Yikes...just one more thing to process.
Again thanks to all & Cathy, I'll try to post sooner after our Thursday meeting
KK