KK...You should start a journal about your feelings. One day you can look back and see what you have been through. Wow!!!
A meeting tomorrow. I hope all goes well. You never know if this is the baby for your family but I understand you keeping your distance. You will have a child, someday. Just remember that. I thought I would NEVER be a mom and now I have 2 kids 15 months apart that keep me sooooo busy....
They can be little stinkers at times but so worth the wait...
Please let us know how things go... PM me if you ever need to chat...
Hugs!!!!