[SchmennaLeigh]

First of all, thank you for the supportive words from ALL, telling me that I am not insane. That is a load lifted from my shoulders in itself. Thank GOD.

Secondly, Jen, thank you for sharing your Mother's story. I do feel as though I don't deserve to raise a girl. I also fear she'd be JUST LIKE ME (as my Mother wished that) and HATE ME for a majority of her formative years for no other reason than... because. (So, I wasn't a super nice teenager. Sorry, Mom.) And believe me, it's not that I think a boy is a second place consolation prize... I love boys! And I do love girls... I'm just scared.

And Kitti, thank you for your long reply. It made me weep with understanding. I also told everyone that Munchkin would be a boy... until the day the ultrasound tech said girl. And now... I'm doing the exact same thing.

On some days, it feels like history is 'repeating itself.' I have weird moments of deja vous. While this situation is 100% different in every form or fashion, there are just moments that catch me completely off guard and I don't know exactly what to do with myself. It's especially strange since I'm WAY showing all ready. *sighs*

Again, thank you. And for anyone else with good advice, keep it coming. We have another three weeks before Butterball lets us know what he/she is... it's going to be a long three weeks.