Jenna,
I can relate too so don't blame it just on hormones it seems perfectly normal to me. If my husband and I had children I was always terrified of having another son and didn't know how I would have coped with that.
My fears were that bad that I was also terrified that my sister would have a son as I was frightened of 'rejecting' a nephew although nobody knew about that. My eldest niece was just over two months old when my son was born but fortunately it wasn't a problem for me then my sister went onto have another two girls which I was quietly relieved about. I did feel guilty about that though as I know my sister would have liked a son.
Everything will work out fine whether you have a girl or a boy simply because you're a survivor.
Philippa
