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KK: As you've now seen, many of us have been broken hearted and emotionally crushed during our quest to be parents. While reading your post I was reminded that I too wrote our PBmother, her parents, her brother, everyone one we had met. I DID NOT MAIL THEM! It just made me feel better to articulate what I was feeling. I also re-wrote them as my emotions changed over the weeks and months. I also found that I was incapable of speaking without having a meltdown, so writing was healing for me. I'm better now two years later. I have a wonderful daughter that brings me joy. I do however send a donation to the ministry we worked with in celebration of his Birthday. He will forever be in our hearts. Love and God bless. Take time to greive; you've lost a child and that is one of the greatest pains one can experience.