KK,
You need to grieve. This is just my experience and everyone deals differently.
Last July we were ready to bring our son home. We were matched for four months after waiting two years and having two other failed matches. I was driving to TX, five hours away from my home (NC) when I got the call from our Pbirthmother. She changed her mind. I cried five hours home and didn't leave the house for two weeks. When I finally went back to work, I cried the first two days.
I picked myself up after that though because I knew God wanted something better for us. Our son just wasn't meant to be. Our daughter came home with us last Sept. It was meant to be. I think time heals wounds...but it doesn't make them go away. You lost a baby...no matter how he/she was coming to you. You need to grieve. For me, I took my time and was ready in two weeks to move on. I constantly called our facilitator to let them know we were ready for our child then. They probably got tired of me. I didn't care. I needed to move on with my life.
You have to deal how you can. Hugs and Wishes for a baby in your life soon. I have an adoption forum on ezboard if you want to come visit. It's private so you need to join but I welcome anyone. If you need more support, come visit. I hope God blesses you soon.
adoption & beyond
Blessings,
Melissa