I always wanted to be pregnant and a mommy. When we first decided to try to get pregnant I read every pregnancy book on the rack and had a clear birthing plan ready before we had even been trying for 6 months. After almost a year of charting, temping, etc we went to RE's to get checked out, we both check out 100% healthy "fertile" and perfect
. We went to 3 of the best RE's in Southern California. We did 1 non medicated IUI, 1 Clomid IUI and 1 injectable IUI, and another month of injectables that screwed me up and my system. I had big problems with the last round of injectables and they couldn't do an IUI. We had decided we didn't want to do IVF because they couldn't tell us what was wrong. One night (January 7th to be exact) I looked at my DH and I said, " I think we should adopt". He looked at me and said, "That's the smartest thing you have ever said." It was one of the most special moments of our marriage. We have felt relief since that night even though we have the anxious feelings brought on by adoption. As much as I knew I wanted to experience pregnancy and child birth I knew I ultimately wanted to experience raising children and having a family more than anything else. Biology really never played a part in or decision making.