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I had health problems when I was younger, so dh and I talked about it when we first started dating, and we thought adoption would be how we'd build our family. Doing well in my twenties, we decided to have one by pregnancy, were blessed to conceive easily but had a high risk pregnancy and almost lost our son several times. We were blessed with our healthy ds near term. Preparing for a second, we saw a high risk pregnancy specialist in our new city - they said we could try another pregnancy and we would just monitor very closely, and asked me to consult with another specialist. We left the first appointment encouraged that we could have another pregnancy, but by the time we got to the car we both realized that our hearts weren't in it. We had both already and independently felt that adoption was for us for our second. We didn't follow up with the other specialist and started collecting information packets.
When we started to realize how difficult adoption was going to be, how frought with its own challenges, problems and possible losses, how very scary it could be and would be, I briefly lost my courage and said "let's just try another pregnancy," and dh said if we did that he'd be disappointed that we didn't get to do this. But don't let anyone ever tell you that this is the "easy" way. DH was right - we are certain that this is the path for us So here we are, preparing for our second miracle!
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