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Originally Posted By CPMommy

That made me cry. I want to Apologize to every Waiting Mom for complaining about my horrible pregnancy. We couldn't get pregnant for several months, then thought we were. We weren't it was a hormone inbalance causing pregnancy mocking symptoms. Back on the pill for several months, wait for the pill to leave you system and then we were successful.

Then I had horrible morning sickness, etc. Lasted well into second trimeter and then I was in pre-term labor at 19 weeks gestation. My son would not have made it if he were born at that time. The doctor would have considered him a spontanious abortion. I was on heavy drugs to try and stop the contractions for almost a week I was in labor. We had the entire family coast to coast praying for this child. Finally, just before the doctors were going to force me to take a medication that would have possibly saved but harmed my son, they stopped.

I was even lucky enough to be discharged from the hospital. Sent home to bed until I reasched full term. Laying in bed for 4 months sounds great but it's horrible. Then my labor was bad too they wanted to do an emergency c-section but I couldn't let them because my family lived far away and my Husband had to work. Stupid but GOD was with me and exactly 7 minutes before the doctor was going to disregard my wishes and cut me open to save my son, I dialated. I pushed him out in 12 minutes flat, he was in fetal distress. From that moment on things have been perfect. The outcome could have been so different, I thank the LORD daily for our little miracle.

I'm telling all of this to say one thing Be careful what you wish for. I wanted a baby so despitely, my 17 year old, unmarried, still in high school was pregnant and I decided that was the final straw. I wanted a baby and I wanted it now. It didn't matter that I was working on a dual JD/MBA degree at the time. Of course stress played no part in my initial infertility of later difficulties. It was the primary cause and I was on full scholarship so from my hospital bed I called my professors and kept them stayed abreast of everything. How stupid if I had continued my son could have spent the rest of his life paying for my decision. Or worse he could have given his life. I quit school and have stayed at home with him but I had to learn the hard way what was important.

I nedded to read that poem and so do most pregnant women. I was so busy stressing and complaining that I didn't enjoy any of my pregnancy.

The stress and pain I went through was temporary and resulted in great joy. I really didn't understand true life long infertility. I am sorry. I always say, "just because you broke your leg doesn't mean it didn't hurt when I broke my toe." This is one time when there is really no comparison.

It took all of that to make me ready to be THE Mom I Want To Be. GOD had to make me sit still and set better priorities. It took months in bed with nothing to be but pray, think, watch reruns, and read. Maybe you were already a great Mom with priorities in check so God gave the time to reflect and learn to someone that truly needed it. Your children came to you ready for you to do what you do best love and raise them. I'm a hardheaded child of God and I needed much more preparation to be the Mother I believe you already were. The test is how well do you do the job God has given you. If you do well he blesses you with more. I see you already have several little blessings you must be doing a great job. (NicksterMommy thank you for sharing that peom you really helped me remember my pregnancy in a new light.)