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Emster -
Your post was great, as I experienced the exact same thing this week and went thru the exact same thoughts!
We too had an opportunity regarding 2 boys under 2 - and I just prayed my heart out for clarity on whether we should do it or not. When I found out more details, it wasn't right for us, and I am now okay with that, but after much deliberation and questioning as a Christian was this what I was meant to do and were these kids for me? I truly believe if God wants you to have those kids you will know it. Not to say you might not be completely comfortable or scared stiff when it does - but I think somehow someway He will make it happen, atleast that is my hope.
I know my call gave me some hope, that calls happen - and my husband said it gave him a sense of urgency and a sense of reality of what we'd need to do when the right situation happens. Although, do you have that fear you won't get another call??? Ugh, this is tough.
Perhaps a warmup call for us for the right situation.
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