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Rights, he doesn't want to foster, he wants to adopt. And its not that I don't want to (we talked about it 15 years ago). Its just that he sprung it on me out of nowhere.
We have talked a lot on the subject by now. I have asked many questions of him and myself. I wanted to make sure that he wasn't trying to "fix" a problem in our relationship by doing this. He truly believes (and I now do too) that he was "called" to do this. He feels it in his heart. He is a fairly religious man and he thinks God is telling him to help these children. I am also an adoptee and I understand what problems this could cause is done for the wrong reason.
I have gotten over my initial shock of the idea and have embraced it. I look forward to having some children around to give a home to, to love, and to help. I am getting excited about it (our first class is tonight). I love children and have the room both in my heart and home for more.
I guess it just took me a while to re-focus my life. I was planning retirement and now that has changed. But I am looking forward to it. Thank you
Tybee Marie,
Thank you for your words. I am sure there will be times that I want to pull my hair out but I am just as sure that the good times will outweigh the bad. Having raised two already we can sit back and see what mistakes we made and maybe do things differently. Our older children are also looking forward to having younger brothers and sisters to mentor.
Every day I feel our excitement over this new life direction grow. We seem to have acquired a new purpose. I look forward to loving, teaching, holding, and being.
Thanks for all the help...I'll be around for more!
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