[coffee_please]

We are wanting to adopt and have been approved (so far) by CYF but we are still working on our profile. I need to talk to people who are going, have been, or will be going through this process. No one we know in the 'real world' seems really able to relate to us about this because they are not in the same boat. I want to talk to people about anything and everything to do with this - similar to our situation or not. I'm getting quite frustrated because there are no support groups for people like us - who are waiting and waiting always waiting - and the support groups that are out there (like Opan) only cater for those who have already adopted. I want to talk to people about the frustration of having people in my family who do not fully support our adoption decision (we haven't tried ALL fertility options yet - because we are completely happy with the choice we have made) but some just don't accept that. We also want to have contact with the birth family, and we are getting objections from our family about that too. We had a stillborn daughter in 2000, so I have had the pregnancy, and the birth and haven't been able to get pregnant since. I want to talk about the fact that I am sad sometimes, and that I get angry that things have to be sooooo difficult and that nothing ever seems to come easy. I think my mother blames me for not being able to have children, while my brother seems hell bent on populating NZ all on his own, with many different children to many different mothers spread from one end of the country to the other. Okay, it's not really as bad as all that, but on days like today, it feels like it, and I want to talk it out, and no I'm not premenstral, I'm just having a bad day for no reason. Please talk to me - anyone - and not just one comment and never talk again - lets make a real support network here and be there for each other.