[BrandyHagz]

Thanks everyone for the great responses so far…Sugar, there is no relationship with my birthmom…there really never has been…its been more of a I know who you are, I’ve been to your house and you email me a few times a year type thing…besides, (I think it was this thread that I mentioned my dads unfaithfulness in) my dad was MUCH closer to my birthmom for a time than I was…at one point, there was even a question of whether he was my biodad or not…and from what I’ve been able to piece together…that was an on again off again relationship for them…continuing for many years.

My closeness was with my maternal grandparents…and because my birthmom lived with them, I knew her too.

I keep coming back to the guilt thing…it’s the only thing that’s made sense.