Hello honey
I am in your same shoes. I have hit so stinking many dead ends. I get info, get excited and then nothing.
I have found the pastors who set up my adoption who I had been looking for, for three years, nothing. I found the attorney my a/parents used for my adoption, nothing. I found a woman, a roommate that lived with my birth mother a year after my adoption, nothing. I thought I had tracked her and found her SEVERAL times, nothing. 7 years now of dead ends.
What keeps me going, I honestly have no idea.
I do know that this forum helps though, I would have given up LONG AGO had I not found this forum and made such wonderful friends who lovingly fill me with motivation, encouragement and give me constant reminders of why I am doing this. I am searching for me.
If you need to take a break, then take a break, but if you want to quit, really really think about it first. There is a big difference between quiting and taking a break.
Take care of yourself first and foremost.
You have family and friends her on the forum.
I am here and I know how you feel.
Write, talk, pm. rest, smile.
Take care