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I have spent 14 years searching on and off. That's sometimes the key. Taking a little time off. And I do know how tuff it is to take a break.
Finding these forums was a god send for me. While I am able to post my feelings it has also been helpful to read the feelings of others.
So, I have found that this whole thing is not just about the "find". It's also, for me, about the emotions for everyone.
In reality, I think that you know you will never totally give up. When you hit those walls, and there may be a ton of them, take a deep breath and carry on. Yes, I too wish there was an easy button.
Also keep in mind that sometimes birth parents leave the search up to the adoptee. This is not always the case but it is sometimes the case.
Best of luck to you and take care of you!!