[DisownedRocker]

Thanks for all your support. I know I haven't given it enough time, but right now I don't see time being on my side. I guess I'm just protecting myself from the grieving process because,honestly, I don't want to grieve. I know how I get when I get depressed, and how hard it is for me to get out of depression, I guess you could say I lack coping skills!! As hard as I'm trying not to grieve, slowly but surely, day by day, it is creeping up on me. Every time I see something that reminds me of him, the reality of it all hits harder and harder.