[snuffie]

Hi
I will try to explain what VOID means to me as an adoptee.
I realize it is very difficult for someone who is not adopted to understand because all of things that others take for granted are the very things we search for. Being adopted is like a big game of make believe with a hole in the our soul as big as the grand canyon.
Imagine knowing that your birth certificate was made up.
When you look in the mirror you are almost a stranger to yourself as you don't know who you look like. My personality was very different than my adoptive parents and I always felt like there was something wrong with me because I wasn't like them. Don't get me wrong. I had wonderful adoptive parents whom I loved very much. But even that couldn't fill the void.
I didn't know what nationality I am or any health history.
It's almost like we are 2 people in one with one hidden but wanting so badly to be recognized.
I have been reunited with my birth family for several years now. That void is almost filled now and there is nothing like it.
I still don't know for sure who my bdad is so that part is still missing but so many of my questions have been answered.
I hope this has helped.
Snuffie