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Originally Posted by mdiebel
I actually thought that I would never meet my b-mom or dad. This was because it was a matter of faith that the records were sealed and that Colorado judges were severe. I had simply reconciled myself to the fact. I have a family... a vocation... a life and why (possibly) derail what stability I have found?
Eventually it began to dawn on me that maybe I wasn't the only person interested or affected. My wife and kids... my b-parents... are interested and affected. At heart I know that I wanted to know whether the Hawaiian part of my story was actually true. I thought it was, but I wasn't sure. I had no reason to disbelieve it.
The truth is that I was anxious. My a-parents were close, affectionate... but I thought a little reluctant for me to pursue the question. I was anxious for myself. When I met b-mom I was thrilled, delighted, happier than at almost any moment in my life. I also thought this will forever change me. I am seeing that the change is not of the kind that I had thought... not wrenching, not frightening. It happens at the pace we choose and to our ability.
My wife was very supportive and encouraging to me and I think that I might not have searched had she not felt that way.
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Wow. It was nice to read your post. I found a brother that could have and kind of did say the same thing as your first paragraph. And to know that you felt that way but then moved in the search direction anyway gives me a glimmer of hope that maybe someday he too will want or open up to conatact.
Thank you for sharing.....it struck a cord for me.
Wendy