48... I "searched" in the same sense as I read others did, began looking through desks at four years old, etc; but at 30 began studying adoption issues, spoke with a-parents, asked questions. Then I let it lie for 18 years, until a priest asked me "are you Hawaiian?" I have had to tell why I look different all my life... (because I mostly live in fairly homogeneous communities). My wife and I talked afterwards, realized that b-mom would be about 74. Now or never. My a-parents are both now passed on. I have processed that confused and probably erroneous "loyalty" feeling... and within six months of landing at this web site made contact with my b-mom. Met her in December 2004 in Honolulu.
Am a secret son there in Hawaii, but the relationship is begun and as she put it, "I want to salvage whatever I can."
