I can very much respect how this makes you feel.... There are many of us Adoptive parents who do recieve the subsidy and worry how our children Might feel when they grow up to learn that we 'got paid' to be their parents....
Some of us sure do think that it is possible that our children will feel differently about why we adopted them if they know that we got a check every month!!!! I know that it would have bugged me to think about my parents getting money to be my parents....
I can also sympothize with how it sure must feel that you were gipped in the fact that now they have all this extra cash laying around and they vacation.....
Is your relationship with your adoptive parents OVERALL a good one?