[Malificient]

jessica, Just read your post and i can her the perplexed tone in your email. I haven' fostered any kids yet, we are just about licensed. We will start fostering with hoes of being able to adopt 1 child one day. But, after reading your dilemn, i just feel so compelled to reply. I am a mother, and have 3 great kids, they are in different stages of their lives, 1 in High school , 1 in middle school and the little guy in elementary. I've been thru dating, to fingerpainting and back. i do have some experience and feel that if your having to ask yourself "Is it time to quit, than it probably is....." Your email mentioned the kids you've had in and out of your lives and homes for the past 3 yrs. the fc you've adopted , and the one your in the process of finalizing. Your heart is torn, I also gathered that you really are fascinated with babies whn their real small and you get to cuddle them and really love on them, right? have you considered this option yet...... Stop fostering any more new kids, focus solely on the kids your already committed to, the ones in your home that ya'l have adopted, allow the cw's to find homes for the 2 most recent ones, and spend all your time and energy on those kids. If your still findin g it difficult to not be around babies, maybe you could do some occasional respite care for babies in fostercare. but the majority of your time is on the family you already have. Your children, IMO, are tooo small to have to have all these kids coming and going, they are getting their hearts attached to these fc, and then their hearts are breaking too, just like yours is when they leave. it's not fair to their hearts or yours. please think about it, i'm not trying to sound harsh, thats just my take on your situation. please think about it. ps. jessica, you said your a military family, we are too..... where are ya'll stationed. we are at Ft. hood, Tx. would love to hear back from you, (malificient, aka. karen)