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Thanks for your reply's!!!
I too feel in my heart that not only my children need all my time and efforts...but they have already grown so quickly and i don't want to miss out on that...because i am too busy to devote my all to them. My little girl that we've had since 5 days old...is now almost 10months. I can't believe that in 2 more months she will already be a year old. Life has just been so busy...and shehas grown so quickly. She will probably be my youngest....unless we do decide to adopt again....or unless by some miracle i get pregnant.......and i just can't believe she is almost out of the baby stage and into becoming a toddler.
I know that the extra income from fostering has enabeled me to be a stay at home mom...and it is also a scary leap to loose that income. yes, it was all used on the kids and on the fun things we get to do with them....but to not get a monthly paycheck...and have to change our life style to accomodate...that does worry me also.
I really don't know how long we will have the 4 year old girl we just got in care...and she is very sweet but also very demanding. I feel like if we decided to stop...we would not only have to have her moved out of the house...that we should also have the baby removed from the house. My also thought is to just keep these two...until they come home and then not accept anymore.....but that in itself...means that we will continue to have 5 kids for the next several months to a couple years depending on how long they stay.
It's just so frustrating. I want to just stop. I want to just have my family and enjoy every minute with them.
But at the same time while I'm saying this...i still want to keep the baby boy. And even if he goes home....if we hear of another young baby coming into care i know i will want to say yes to them as well.
I hate being these mixed feelings....one minute I feel so strongly one way. The next I really want to keep accepting 1 baby......that way I only have 4...life is more quiet...and i can still enjoy my family....and continue to do what I love. All my kids love babies...and my son doesn't seem to have these problems....(until the baby has to leave), then he might be sad for a while.
Anyone have any other advice how they came to their decision...and stuck with it?
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