[DisownedRocker]

(((Jena))). I think this is another part of the emotional roller-coaster that comes with adoption. If adoption were a theme park, there would always be an "emotion" to ride. Some days I feel VERY disgusted w/myself, and I guess that could be associated with shame. But then I think of the beautiful little boy that I gave birth to, and how proud I am to be Zachary's birthmother, I couldn't have asked for a more healthier and happier baby. As much as I don't want to tell people, I tell them, because then when I'm down and out for a day they'll have somewhat of a sense why. Always remember, there is a beautiful, happy, healthy little girl who would not be here if it weren't for you. That in itself gives me enough "pride" to overcome the shame.