It made me so sad to read that you ashamed to be a birthmother
. I don't experience this pride/shame scenario, at least not to the degree that you feel it. The extent to anything even resembling shame that I feel is sadness that I wasn't financially stable or prepared enough to raise my child.
This is something that I personally tell myself regularly that just takes away the shame....the only way that (most) aparents are ever able to become parents is because of my "sin/indiscretion". Where is the shame in that?!? I was able to provide a loving couple with a child and create a family.
I, like Michelle, LOVE telling people about my bson. I used to tell people all the time whenever they asked me about my pregnancy. Hey, if they didn't want to know then they shouldn't have asked..lol
. And I agree that the more I do it the easier it gets. Also every one I mentioned it to was so supportive and I found that that would give me a lot of encouragement.
I hope that you are able to work through your feelings and see that there is no shame in being a birthmom. I'm having lots of other conflicting emotions right now and I understand how difficult it is to try and sort through and make sense of everything.
(((hugs)))
Vanda