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Thanks for your kind words on this roller coaster ride of emotions. I did sleep well, so it's a good sign. I will have to take it slowly. I would find it more simple if it was not around Christmast time, the period that everything revolves around familly. At the same time, I understand why my bmother might try to meet me at that time of year.
From what the social worker told me, she has no familly. She was an orphan and in Quebec in the 50's it was not the best place and time to be in that situation. A lot of orphans were put in mental institutions for no good reason. She came out at 18 and found work as a maid. She became pregnant at 19 and was forced to adandon me to an orphenage. In 1970 they decided to close many orphenages in Quebec and my parents adopted me. My bmother went trough a lot after that, alchool, drugs and all but she got herself togheter and started helping other women in her situation.
Here's the kicker, I met her without knowing it, 22 years ago. She gave conferences on her experience and work and she came to my school. I don't remember much about her, except she mentioned she had a child in april 67. It strucked me at that time that she could be my bmother and it scared me. At the same time there was so many kids who were adopted in the 60's, that I dismissed it as a coincidence and I decided that I would not search for her. But I never had any resentment towards her.
The social worker told me she was a very nice and well balanced person. She also has health problems, it might explain why she decided to shearch for me after 37 years. I feel like I have to meet her, only if it's to give her peace of mind about me. But first, I will have a meeting with my familly explaining my motivations toward this and the fact than nothing could compromise 35 years of mutual love.
Thanks again
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