I'm so glad to hear you are doing better. It is amazing how some words from the cw can make or break a day. Sometimes there are those days you just need to hear something--anything to be reminded that you aren't forgotten. No one could have prepared me for the emotional roller-coaster that you are now on. You wont be waiting another 8 years
. I believe God is doing His part right now, preparing the way for your child to be with you. He is a great matchmaker. Get as much training as you can done now. It looks good when you are concidered along with other families. Keep log of the books you read and the hours you spend doing research on special needs (even if you aren't looking for "special needs" most states lable most all their kids as special needs). This will help you pass more time. Blessings to you with your journey.
Melissa