[michellemartin]

Yeah, Jensboy, maybe they should do some "followups". Like a visit a few months down the road and the emotions each party felt. So even though there is the joy, people will also be able to understand the sorrow that goes hand in hand with that.

For me though the first visit was easy. No tears. It was the second. It wasnt really about missing her, but more a lack of understanding who she will be now. That doesnt make sence. I guess I dont have the words to explain what my emotions were at that second visit. I didnt really hold her much at that one either. I didnt feel like I "needed" to, but yet I felt this terrible loss. I think it partly has to do with being "erased" which is coming up on the 30th of this month.