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Thank you Rowan
Dear Rowan:
I completely understand what you are saying. I know I should be more positive and try to look from her perspective at the time. It's just that I see some ** online say they have no feelings about the child they gave up and that really hurts me. I need to know who I am. I feel like until I meet this woman I don't really know anything about me. I need to see her, hear her voice, know her name. I want to do this for myself as well as for my kids that I may have one day. I look nothing like my parents, so I know they will ask. I used to ask when I was younger. I am a medium complexioned black female and my mom is practically white while my dad is lighter complexioned than I and my grandparents were creole. You may be able to understand the difficulty I had finding my place in my family.
Do you know if in 1981 New Orleans birthmothers were allowed to hold their babies? Also, why is the only new born picture I have of myself on a button and not a real copy? Does she have the real picture of me? Do birthmothers get the new names of their children? What info do they receive? I just have my blood work papers, adoption papers from the courts, and papers from the Volunteers of Americal as well as the home my mother stayed at.
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