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I am writing this because I feel it might be important to share on this subject. I am 23 years old and am about to be a father come March. I have strived so much for the Lord's will in this situation, having such a hard time with adoption or keeping the child. The problem is that my ex-fiance' has already made up her mind about giving the child up for adoption though I do belive that God has other plans. In my seeking Him in all His ways though, unworthy and very much heartbroken by all of the situation, He has shown me that I should take the child. From the very first moment I knew there was a child I was in love with this little one, knowing that God had brought life, even through sin. It is so hard to discern such a thing, whether or not God's will is this or that. I find all of the great things with God doing something amazing if this little one is adopted. I also see the hardship of being a single father and raising a newborn child, but the blessing is in the love that God has given me for this child and for their mother. No sense of nobility for it, none at all. It is just God being able to glory in His good and perfect will, though it be hard and scarry at the same time. But it is for me to trust and to have faith and for God to do such amazing things through this. I may never know what they are but they are to be. It has been hard to be like Gideon in knowing the Lord's will, testing and thinking this or that may not be right, but the Lord has prevailed and will prevail through whatever circumstance may be. If I am given an opportunity to name this child I hope that if a girl, "Faith" because of the amount of faith it took to have in God to go after what He wanted, and if a boy "Trust" a good strong name because of the way that God helped me to trust Him through this hard time. I believe that children should be a reminder of how the Lord works, so much in a name. I am excited very much to hold this little one in my arms and pray for them that first day they enter the world. I hope that there will be times where I can sit and hold them when they are younger and even older and sing about the Lord and what He has done. I hope also that their mother would want to be a part of thier life and this all so God can be glorified. Well this may not be the kind of story that you requested about birth fathers but I belive it might encourage some men and possibly some women to seek after Jesus Christ in thier time of trouble.