Its about full circle to me.. Its about finally knowing what happened..
But suddenly it's as though a huge gapping hole appeared in my life that I had ignored and failed to deal with.
It comes back full force.. Dosen't it..
I got angry.. I got incredibly angry when I met my first born son..What an amazing thing that anger was.
There is such a thing as a good solid reunion.. An amazing thing to behold..
Me.. I have a hard time calling him.. He wants me to phone and I can not. Talking with him now days hurts..
I still grieve.
And I am honoring that grief.. I am taking care of me.. He is just fine.. I know that..
Jackie