((SchmennaLeigh))
I am feeling that same desperation right now. How is it possible that in a city as big as the one that I live in... there could be no support groups for this????? WHY!!?? I have said this before. I had a pity party back in May. So I guess it is the same type of cylce. Everything is ok.... then bam-- huge brick wall and I feel like I am desperately clinging to something. But I truly feel like there really isnt anything to cling to.
I, too, accept the blame. I know that I brought this on myself. My choices put me here. But all that does is tell me to grin and bear it. Sometimes the grin part is easy but the bear it part is awful.
SchmennaLeigh,
I have always done one of two things. Come here and talk about it. Or leave here and wait until I am feeling better. Usually over the holidays, I choose to leave. It gets rough in here. The chatroom is usually a lot more supportive than the board (hope that doesnt offend anyone here....) you might try that. I went to support group when I lived in Texas... that helped a lot. But Im not sure that I would be able to talk to someone one on one. And like you said....how do you find a counselor who has adoption experience?? If you find something that helps, honey, please pass it on. I was talking about it to some great birthmoms in the chat night before last. I think just talking to people who understand can help. At least it gives you the feeling that you arent alone. Feelings like this are at least semi-normal. (((HUG))) hang in there. That is the same advice that I give myself. Hang in there and go one day at a time.
Christine