I just don't see a light at the end of this tunnel anymore. I did once. But my vision is blurred or the tunnel got longer or my car broke down or
something. If we had groups in SE Ohio, I would go to one. If there was a therapist who had any idea of anything adoption related, I would go. (Having gone to two and having the last one tell me that I just "need to get over it" didn't help. There are only three other therapists in my area on my insurance...grr...and none have adoption experience.) I'm considering going to my doctor about anti-depressants... though, not having been on them for quite some time, I don't know if my primary care physician can do anything for me or if I have to find a psychiatrist. I hate medication. I hate the person it makes me. But I hate who I am right now.
I all ready miss D with all of my heart but I can't risk hurting them with my complete downspiral that I am in right now.
