[SchmennaLeigh]

I need advice from birthparents about how to get back on track. Recent events and inane comments have left me broken and basically destroyed. To the point that I have removed all pictures of Munchkin from my house and told J and D that I need some time and space. They are respecting that... but what do I do with time and space?

How do I love myself again? How do I accept who I am? I can't handle anything adoption related anymore. I hate having the title of birthmother SO BADLY that it makes me want to scream. I hate who I am. Not what I've done, which would be guilt, but WHO I AM, which is SHAME.

I need someone to hold me today... and I'm feeling so desperately alone.