i was adopted when i just just a baby. I always dreamed of meeting my birth parents. i have thought about them everyday of my life for 21 years. at least 5x a day. I've been searching, and i'm getting closer to locating them, but i worry they dont want to meet me. They kept me a secret from their family, so i don't even know if anyone else knows i exist. I would love to have them search for me, to talk to me, to tell me about themselves, my siblings, my grandparents, everyone. I want them to share their lives with me, and me with them. In my heart, they are my parents, just as my adoptive parents are, even though my adoptive parents obviously have been with me for all my life so far. It's like when parents get divorced, you end up with more people to love
I can't get over my fear of rejection, but i keep trecking on in search of my birth family. I haven't found any information to support the idea that my bfamily is searching for me.......and it saddens me, i just want to tell them that i always think about them, that there is a spot in my heart and in my life for them if they want. I just hope that i don't ruin their lives by approaching them, but i have to and want to talk to them.
*sniffs*