[ZoeHvs]

It's not as if i hate getting older, but it's very emotional at times. I find myself not wanting any gifts, or wanting to really wanting to "celebrate" in a way that is. I ache, yet I hope she knows I think of her and I know she thinks of me. It's almost like I feel her pain. I love her - i do! What she did I know wasn't her true decision. Sometimes we have to do what we have to do at the time. I know.
I guess I want to know if anyone else has the same feelings around this time. My brithday is 10-18-71, & I'll be 33. I know you're out there. I know I have 2 siblings at the time of my birth from my father, and a sister on my bmoms side. What can I say, it's a love for a family I feel I can never fully express. Fillled with love is what I am, and at some times it sucks.
GOD BLESS TO ALL!!
I WILL NEVER LOSE FAITH!