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Hi Gina,
I remember having a nursery set up waiting for a young child to fill the empty crib. I had no idea whether we'd have a boy or a girl or what young age (under 2). I finally shut the door and decided not to go in becuase it hurt too much. I would have days where I would constantly think about a baby and grieve. Then I had days where I would say to myself, if my dh and I are all that make up of our family, that's okay. The roller-coaster of emotion is awful. Hearing anything from the cw would send me into a high or a tailspin. Not hearing anything would drive me to depression. It is the laboring of our hearts.
I was watching The Passion of the Christ movie the other day and I bounced right out of my pit I'd been in. It brought things back to perspective. God knows pain, regection, anticipation and He loved us so much that He laid down his life for us. It just helped me a lot. I know some are very sensitive about the movie but watching it again reminded me of how God knows our pain. It was all laid on Chist that graceious day He died to save us.
Blessings to you. All the wait and pain will be worth it. The wait wont be forever.
Melissa
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