The uncertainty is the worst!! My husband and I have been officially 'certified' for a couple of weeks now, and I think I'm going to end up going cuckoo before the end.
It's just so hard to prepare my heart and mind to deal with the 'could be tomorrow, six months from now, a week, a year, ...' reality that is now my life. I mean, if I knew it was going to be short or I knew it was going to be long, I could prepare accordingly. But, instead, I just have to make my plans for the 'cross-country Christmas trip to see family' while also making back-up plans in case we are blessed to have a child placed with us before Christmas and can't go... After all, it's unlikely, but our case manager was telling us today about another family that got matched in only about 5 weeks - could happen, right? AAHH!! Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I can sympathize...