[brknhrt19]

My parents are living in their own worlds where everything is fine now and their guilt of forcing me to give up my son is only shown behind closed doors. I have no support from my son's father...whom I am still with. I can't do this by myself, I won;t survive. It hurts so bad. I'm so scared, I can't do this. I miss him so much. He belonged with me. If not my parents then I need my son's father, but he won't grieve with me. He won't support me, being there through the nightmares. He won't talk about it and I feel so uncomfortable coming to him. I won't survive 17-20 more years of this. I won't.